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he wakes up from a short sleep feeling tired and restless but is excited for the day ahead is something he awaited. He hops in the shower and gets ready in a rush as he is somewhat late. as he walks out the house all he could think about was to arrive at that place even though it was a short distance. He arrives a couple of minutes late to see many souls around but just blends in the crowd. after the event was done he spent time with his friends that were there as well. walked nothing more than a mile and satisfied his tummy. The day was far from over as they arrived back at their destination. from his somewhat long walk he decided he needed a rest and sat with a very good friend at a table. He sets his furry friend on the table. they talked for a while but one thing he was surprised of was the fact of how his heart was rushing. before he knew what was going on a sticker was set on his furry friend.

Today was the first day of a journey that was going to end in june. things raced through his mind as he had something planned. the first day seemed somewhat slow and he was nervous as what he had in his backpack was just a little thing but can be gentle. the bell had rang and it was time for his approach. he knew the numbers that would unlock and left the small thing inside with a smaller thing with writing. he felt so nervous that he didnt know what to do. as he walked out he overheard that his plan was going to get ruined so he desperately did the unthinkable and thought of lie to get his plan back on track but seemed to obvious. he walks to a bench and sits patiently waiting for his plan to occur. feeling like a nervous wreck all he could do was wait. lights start to flash and no friends were in spitting range as the two were side by side. he receives an answer, receives a hug.

he approaches his friends stating he wasn’t single anymore they congratulate him but to his amazement one of his friends felt the same way. the only thing he can think of was the fact that his friend never jumped on the chance. his friend states it’s fine but deep down inside he’s shocked.

9-9-09

yea look at the title hahahaha

anyways soo my day wasnt so great in the beginning to start off with the shower and how i didnt have any shampoo soo i was like ehh w/e and just continued my shower then i couldnt find my phone case because my momma threw it away so i had to go find that then the civic was all foggy and icy so i couldnt really see so i rolled down the windows and to my surprising discovery my windows wouldnt roll up all the way so i had to call my mom to get the car in the morning and had to wait which made me late for the BART and school then my bus came but i couldnt get on cuz it was full so i had to wait but when i got to school there was a seat for me in calc cuz theres usually no seats soo i was glad lol...at school it was a good day seemed my day became better there =) classes were smooth and a cute girl kept looking at me but me no interested haha but yea...then wen i get back from classes my momma picked me up and went to my grandparents house to see that he was fixing the window and it worked and everything just went smooth from there...i do have this little thing i want to put about love but yea not now its expanding from relationship love..well kinda

"Service to many leads to greatness"

FORREALS....

I fcuking hate it when ppl ask me to take them places just so they can do or get something and doesnt have anything to involve me in it like seriously im not a FCUKING TAXI CAB or a CHAUFFEUR you have your own parents n if you dnt have parentals to take you then get your fucking ass up and take a bus BART the same thing i did when i didnt have a fcukin car like really...i mean its fun to have my l's i can go where i want and i can do my own thing and leave when i want to but when you fcuking ask me to take you places and when we're chilling you fcuking make fun of me like seriously the fuck is that and also i haven't seen yall to benefit or help me in any way. just because i have my l's doesnt mean you should always ask me to take you places. if i offer then thats a different story im offering you and i wouldnt mind but seriously the dnt where a fucking cap or have a meter SO GET OFF MY FCUKING BALLS AND GET YOUR FCUKING LAZY ASS UP N GET IT YOURSELF SHIT

anyways i dnt think i've been that heated in a while but anyways today was a koo day went to go get francis and we went to michaels and went to starbucks to do some homework and then eat at in-n-out...i swear i loving chilling with francis and being with that foo he's hella fun and funny 2 and chilling with him as friends only but yea

my love status is just eazed and chill i mean i do want to have that person but i dnt want to force it i am who i am and im not going to change that i might adjust but thats it love is something you can't force to happen and by it comes to you with ease and the best type of love is the love that u dont see and just hits you out of nowhere many of us strive for love many of us ask for love but the truth is it takes time to develop...so what i mean to say is that my status is still single, still like that same person that i have been from my other blogs but patiently waiting...

"you never know what you had until its gone, then it shows how much it means to you"

just to clarify...

my last blog wasnt about a girl also well the dream part was but yea anyways

i just wanted to let you know that you were a great girl and that i was looking foward to a future with us but i know everyone that has been reading my blogs know what i mean but i do want to say that u were that type i was looking forward too but u were just confusing to me that made everything blah and hard but i mean i guess we shall just go seperate ways and be us...such a shame cuz it looked very bright

its all good...

so today i tried downloading games for my mac lol like getting a ps2 on here lol but ehh cooperate with me then i tried to get a game thats not really working well 2 lol so now im just sitting here watching CSI:Miami. i like this CSI better then any other one becuz idk i think its the way of the graphics catches my attention and that blonde girl is hecka pretty lol even though shes old. later im going to try to see if i can get that download to work. n probably chill with some peeps not sure yet.

so last night i had a weird dream and the night before 2...it involved me turning down 2 ppl one from a kiss and the other yea lol but ANYWAYS ooo but the girls are ppl that i know and yea

so like i really like how ppl are now a days so truthful n loving SIKE the hell. the thing i dnt like is how ppl can think that i can just be soft n nice but i mean i can but not like just for any occasion reason especially to benefit your needs, all you wanted for me is to just join you so your not the only freshman and after go your own ways when i asked for the same favor but you didnt want to come as well soo i mean really all your doing is hiding the truth

and i can't believe you as well i helped you with your problems i helped you through your pain n i helped you get through ur heartache from a person you dearly loved i opened up to you and u did as well, the only difference between u n me is that i can keep my mouth shut, forreals you have no right to be giving info about my life and telling ppl how i am if you are just a lie and complete lie.

w/e i can get through this like i always have...

"girl tell me the truth not a lie, cuz your love is something i can't deny"

haha thats funny...

cuz my previous blog wasn't about a girl, lady, woman, w.e

but i have learned that even though it can get lonely and do want that someone to lean on have fun with and treat her special sometimes its not always like that, and yes i will say lesson learned and i will wait for that one to come n ill keep on waiting till she does cuz patience is a virtue and sometimes waiting for something to come to you is better then making it happen

so today i saw this couple that i know and before they were not in the best relationship and didnt show much love they argued fought and just didn't look like love to me more of a business to me. they almost reached the point of leaving and turning around but with the help of close loved ones they fought n stayed strong n now they're stronger then ever and look like a couple again and to my eyes looked a lot like true love because in the end through everything they came across they ended up working it out and continued there love...

well today i went to antioch for a baby cousins birthday party, it was fun, ate alot, saw some ppl that haven't seen in a while and got that special relationship back...

"a first true love is like a sickness at first it goes away but then comes back again"

too much for my mind...

its annoying how you only want to benefit yourself, how you demand me to do something that satisfies your needs but when it comes to mine you make no effort no passion, all the things that have came out of your mouth are just things to cover up the truth, the things you say that seem to be fake are true, how i've always been making an effort, its just annoying overall to what you have fed in my mind these thoughts are just too much and you are as well, i make my effort which doesnt seem so good, you're just so selfish, and how you think that making fun behind my back wont catch up but it has, i hope your happy with what you have done and i guess you can say mission accomplished cause you got my fooled,but ill say that when you need help think twice before coming to me

5 day weekend for me hella excited, get to relax forget the stress and just chill

copying francis hehe...

so francis did his little what he wanted in a girl if he was straight well im do the same thing but i am straight so ima still do straight lol but yea what i want a girl...

someone who tries before she gives up before she makes any assumptions as assumptions are just things that you consider, a girl whose smart not someone who is hella smart but works for her grades and is able to take care of herself, a girl thats responsible and not lazy as laziness is a turn off, a girl who can dress nice on some day but dress like simple and still look beautiful, a girl who is adorable and can make me smile and say yup thats my little girl LITERALLY but from far away lol, a girl that isnt afraid to be her self around me and is comfortable with me knowing i wont judge her the wrong way, who is able to enjoy time with me even though all we did was watch tv, where even though its a party and hella ppl are around she'll come up to me look me in the eyes and say i love you with a nice peck on the lips, who gives effort into things even though she knows shes not all that great at it, who doesnt ACT like shes everything and kinda acts like a lady but has he child side, where if i stare at her she says what? WHAT?!? and then smiles and turns away, where i can feed her and shell feed me =], whose loving towards her family and never deny that fact that she loves them, who can get along with my friends and i can get along with hers, who doesnt lie to the full extent if its about a surprise im ok with it but i want her to be honest, to know that im not the only person in her life and is able to have her fun just like me, where we can have fun like a little play around wrestle lol and have a nice kiss in the end, who isnt afraid to open up to me as im always there to listen and take in her advice, where we can write letters to each other, how we can have our accessories that signifies we're together, someone who will hold hands with me but hold pinkeys were there sweaty and hug then say bye but isnt able to let go, how she can put as much effort in the relationship just like i do, my list can go on but its alot...


besides that today i went to class at 8 and wen i went to go pick up sylvia at 6AM he told me there was a shooting and i thought it was fireworks go figure lol...so we got to BART got to SFSU and then went to my classes my engineering teacher said we can leave after like 30 mins of instructions koo right so i hope on BART sleep at like glen park and wake up around san leandro =] but yea then i went home. chilled for a bit then went to arroyo chilled with some ppl and drop them off, went to morgans to chill then drove home saw yvonne gave her a lift got home went with my mom to my grandparents and now im home but yea srry i know its short and sweet but yea BYE =]

that little pinch...

you know i want that feeling where things were just endless, where everyday is a new day of experiences, that little hint of a touch that makes you blush and turn red, where the lips touch and the moment seems to last a long time, that big smile when i have a dozen colored reds and can be put in a vase with water, where the sky is dark but being with you makes it bright, where the weather is cold but we hold each other like last night, how if the day is blue your voice makes me shine through, where im being supported even though i know im not the best, knowing that your okay with my looks even though i look like crap, letting you do your thang with your girls cause i know in the end your coming back to me, letting me do my own thangs with my ppl because your all i really want, doing things we enjoy together as if we were similar but different in a way that we cant completely understand y, to let you know that im here for you and who you are, not to just pull out some rubber and leave, to have a type of love where it can be shown physically and mentally, also how love cant be bought but worked for and to be built up, its that little pinch that makes me feel loved...

so today i chilled with some peeps and did a little hw for engineering and it was ight hopefully it doesnt get so much harder...i also went to wingstop and target had some lemon pepper at wing and some garlic parmesean its ight but yea...tomorrow start at 12 soo yup yup...ive also been thinking of minoring in psychology becuz ppl say im wise but im not really sure but yea

what can i say

shes beautiful as a sunset but she disagrees, has the personality of a loving kind person but surpasses it, denies true love because it hurts to have the truth, the knowledge of a college student but doesn't seem to try, a heart as solid as glass but gentle that can't be dropped, a body so strong but can't be touched, a mind that's wise but can also be confused, and also is wanted by the right guy but can't see or just doesn't know as he is afraid for the consequences in the end...

anyways just something that came to mind yadadada =]

about my day i had make up time for my sleep so happy =] but after that i had to go to school and it was flipping hot OMG the hell but its koo had 2 classes that were an hr each...OMG first wen i got to daly city the buses took forever so i was like fcuk it im going to the shuttle after waiting 30 mins becuz the buses that WERE 28 changed to out of service GRRRR so i took the shuttle then i walked straight to class and had like idk 10 mins before it started...met a new friend his name is francisco and he's a SOPHOMORE haha i feel cool but yea...after philo class i went to my intro to engineering and there was alot of ppl i didnt expect so much...after class i went straight to bus OMG that shit took forever too and there was like 100+ for the shuttle and 100+ for the bus but the bus came and there was 2 which was a good thing but it didnt fit everyone can you believe that lol but yea then i got to BART and just napped on the way home

then i hung out with diamond well not really cuz NICOLE SANTOS wasn't there soo yea but we went to the mall and also to take them to watch the sunset even though there was not sunset becuz of the clouds GRRRR...but now ima go to 7-11 to get a drink PEACE

first day of college..

OMG it was pretty koo i think its just its my first day lol but yea and i only had 2 classes but ANYWAYS heres how it went

Woke up at 5:45 kinda lol then i got in the shower and it was soooo dark AHHHH but yea took a hot shower to wake me up and when i was done got dressed and drank some sunny D but yea then after that i called sweetie up and said good morning and all that then i got into the car turned up the music to wake me up more and drove to the BART as i got there Suzette was waiting for me =P but yea then we took the daly city bart there...

When i got there i had to go to the bookstore to find my book and buy it but for some reason i couldnt find it =P so i just went to class with suzette and helped Suzette find her class then i went to my class and thought the floor i was currently on was the 1st floor so i walked up some steps and it said 5 i was like WHHHHAAAATTTT wrong way lol so i went back down and got to my calc class and waited a while...some ppl were for algebra 2 and in the wrong class phewww glad i wasnt them...soo the teacher came in and she seems mellow but theres alot of ppl in that class that some had to sit down haha but yea...and there was this girl who sat to my left and she would always look at me like no joke but yea got out and went to my engineering class

its not so far which is good and so i went there and it was ight seems like its going to be boring in that class but we did some measurements and met a koo dude and after doing all that went home early haha and the class was like an hr long wen its like 2 hrs almost 3 =D

after that went to the bookstore to get my books that i needed i only got 2 and the total came up to about 188 DAMN just 2 books fudge but yea oooo and i love the campus sure the scenary is nice but i meant the ppl haha alot of cute girls but they look older then me

so after the bookstore i went to the bus stop waiting for like 30 minutes i think well it felt like it and when the bus came this girl got out and my mouth was about to drop she was really pretty but i mean she looked like a senior sooo nahhhh haha but yea

then on the bart ride home i fell asleep i was really tired and wen i woke up i looked outside and it said bayfair LOL i was like ooo shoot and luckily the door was still open or that would of sucked but yea got out went home and now im hella hungry so ima eat PEACE

that time...

ok soo im awake at 1:34 haha MORNING well not really its afternoon but what i wanted to blog about today was effort well kinda anyways

ok sooo like most ppl go after what they believe in and want it right they want to have that. But when is THAT TIME when you should lay low or lay off? well truth its for you 2 decide that as most ppl fight for it alot while others give up easily but heres the thing if you really want something fight hard for it and show some effort. Not everything comes as to plan and we must all know that. And sure sometimes we dnt know what to do but that doesnt mean we shouldnt try right? i believe that theres that time when we all know THAT time to lay off and yes i have found mine and yes im laying off but it doesnt mean its always going to be like this haha ;] just saying hahaha but yea. Sometimes after putting all that effort then laying low works as it can come to you but sometimes it doesnt. Know that not all people are the same so we must find ways to open them up or tone them down. Im sure youll come across what i mean haha. OOOHHHH yea also sometimes just being friends shows your true better side and your comfortable side and SOMETIMES it can get you that person =] but yea some wisdom of my mind... BYE =] have fun in school everyone as its back...well for some of us

my day...

Ok so my day started off with 6 messages haha i know that was alot one from morgan, camille, nicole, rocel, my ex, and someone else i forgot but yea soo i woke up and took a shower then i went to gamestop to get madden =]. later morgan calls me right when i exited gamestop and asked me if he can get a hair cut so i was like sure. picked him up and went back to my house to cut his hair and after played some madden.

After beating morgan in madden haha the time was like 4:40 and i needed to get ready for the dinner at olive garden so i put some jeans on and asked my mom for the car. BTW i love my mommy but yea so i take morgan home and pick up francis from there we went to Olive garden and saw Elyssa, Nicole, n Andrea there and waited for Stephanie and Michelle before we order. It was really fun played some mind games and it took francis forever to understand black magic that was hella funny. Francis was like the entertainer of that night but yea and i sent him and nicole a text. Forget the waiter huh nicole haha but yea then we took a pic in front of olive garden.

After that we went to target with nicole, elyssa, francis and i go to target because elyssa has a gift card. after target i did a little something something lol and dropped off nicole at her house then elyssa francis and i go to nubi and while we were at nubi elyssa was like your hat and i was like ooo yea sooo we went to lids and got a new hat THANK YOU ELYSSA LOVE YOU =] but yea the hat took a while so i dropped off elyssa first at her house leaving francis there and i came back for him though... THANK YOU FRANCIS LOVE YOU 2 but yea after that took francis home then i went home because my mom needed the car. soo i took the truck out and went to morgans house

at morgans house we watched 17 again and that movie is hella touching and makes me want something like that you know love and all i mean its pain to get there and alot of trust and also hurt but it shows when you love someone show it each day like its new and no matter what its hard to stop loving but ppl chase after what they believe in and when you go after it and fight for it the best can come. nothing comes easy everything must be worked hard to achieve and get soo yea i know that when i have that person ill treat her well but the most important thing in that movie was that he really did love her and what i mean is that even though he truely loved her and still wanted her to be with him he let her go because he knew that her happiness was more important and thats the way to go

but yea after that we just played madden went to jack in the crack get some jack in the box and went home but yea its late im going to sleep...till then bye

you know that....

"You know that feeling where you get closer and your heart starts to beat faster? Or what about that feeling where you second guess cause your either scared or think to much? What about that feeling where your so excited you can't wait for it to happen? How about the feeling where you don't want to look like a loser because your some what caught up? And that feeling where you think what your doing is right? What about that feeling when you look around hoping to see what your looking for? And that feeling where you get closer? Or what about that feeling that makes you have a BIG smile on your fizzace? What about that feeling that you haven't had in a while or for the first time? That feeling that brings kind of everything down? That feeling that makes you think? Or that feeling where you just cant think straight? or that feeling thats unexplainable? Yea im pretty sure you know that feeling..."

other than that i had a good today on 8-18-2009 had a diamond day and it was pretty chill also hung out with francis and saw yvonne too...after chilling with the NEW sophmores i went to morgs house and chilled with him while we watched a movie...then went home to play some COD4...well yea just a quick update going to bed now night world

a dream...

"Girl, i want you 2 know that i will always be there for you no matter what happens. Through thick and thin you're something i wont deny. I'll be you hero when your down. Be your colors when you day seems gray. Listen to your problems while while we're looking at the sunset. Make you feel safe even though you know its not. Hold you close when your scared or just to make you feel like its the best thing in the world. Make you laugh when its just us two or with friends. Never abuse you or hit you because it's not the right thing to do. Never stop fighting for your love as i know it can go away at any moment. Let you go when your with your friends and have you on another day. Leave you be with school work as i know its just as important and if you need help im here unless i have some too haha. Know to leave you alone when you need to be and help when its necessary. Even if it seems like there's no love in this crazy world ill show you mine. And come with a surprise even if theres no reason for it just basically because i miss you. Leave the drama behind as we know its not necessary for it. And make sure in the end your always happy..."

THAT was for no particular lol forreals no lie i was just driving and it went through my mind haha but yea...

well today was a boring day nothing to do just stayed on the 360 and hella juiced for my laptop to come in. school starts in less then a week and now with BART running again im all good. welp thx for reading =]

lovely day

Soooo today started off with waking up at 10 which is hella early since ive always been waking up at 3PM but ehh anyways i heard a loud crash and it was my garage so i checked and it was my mom who apparently broke it haha i love my mommy but yea here i come to the rescue to save her and fix it =] i was like DUN DA RA DUN hahaha im here to save the day lol jk jk but yea sooo she went to costco and she got my foot roll ups cause i love that and she got lipton green tea and i wanted that but i didnt tell her but she got it =]

after that im just lying down watching WHAT NOT TO WEAR haha but yea and she says lets go shopping so me and my bro get ready hella quick and we go to southland =]...i get a shirt from UP, 2 jeans from macy's and a nice jacket, and a colorado rockies hat =] hella juiced and morgan, jesse and marc sneak up on my and mi mama haha but yea then we get some panda express and go home...

my cousin tells me that he got COD4 so i go and pick it up after asking my mom if i can borrow the car so i was juiced about that and when i got home i started playing it and get a txt from morgan asking if ima ball with them and so i was like ight i need exercise so they get me and we hit up logan

at logan i was feeling becuz i ate lol but yea our first game was up and i was ight made 2 shots but its all good after that i sucked hella bad and got the wind knocked out of me becuz i jumped up in the air and landed in some dudes elbow on my tummy and couldnt breathe but yea im alright though

then we go to IHOP and had the best waitress and ate some good ass food and had a few laughs too and when they took me home i got out of tony's car and walked to the front door but i was going for a prank and i ran out, around the truck, and behind tonys car towards morgans side and so i scared the shit out of morgan that was a good laugh and then hoped on COD4 and played a bit'

oooo and i got a txt from my new friend Yvonne and we talked for a while

idk my day today was good i liked it but yea im out its 4:00AM so im out peace

good advice....

ok so i was talking to my ex of 2 years and we were just catching up and no theres nothing going on again we were just MATURE about how things were and put things aside to become friends again...anyways we were talking and she told me this

FJAKDFJIOFWEFLSK (11:06:20 PM): the best revenge is regret
FJAKDFJIOFWEFLSK (11:06:23 PM): not pain

and trust me i never do revenge its not me its immature and just blah but yea =D

wont even start....

soo i was browsing around on youtube and i came across this...



....i feel him

damn i hate you

ok so today was a pretty chill today woke up at like 3 lol i know right hecka late but o wells...then i went to morgans house and chilled with that bruh for a while and met up with elyssa then at her house since she lived across the street then at around 5:30 went home cuz morgan was going to see his girl and just watched tv the rest of the day...at around 10 i get on the xbox and play some ufc and chat with some ppl and i made a new friend... HI YVONNE =D yea talked with her for a while and morgan and rocel and yea then i get a IM from nugget talk with her for a bit...she knows me very well...now im going to bed soon and i realized that you fucked me over lost a good friend and i know your happy about that but i mean seriously put your fucking shit in my shoes...how would you feel if you lost someone that you had a great bond with i bet you dont even care cuz towards me you can care a less about me at all...but thats all good cuz your ass still didnt grow up...well only the true ppl stay... and letting a girl decide that factor damn cuz really if i used you then think about this the ppl i hang with now dnt even have cars or drive i just love being with them and chilling...think about it but its all good i guess some girls use their powers for bad...

the movies

so yesterday i woke up at around 2 O'clock ive been waking up pretty late lately but anyways i played ufc till like 6 id say and then patrick stops by to get the zippo then i get a IM from marc and ask if he wants to go watch a movie so i went and we went to morgans house but found out marc wasnt going...then me and morg go to union city and meet up with tony and bianca BUAC haha...and we purchased the orphan at first i didnt really know what to expect but i heard it was good...so we're waiting for the movies to start and i get hungry so i ask morg lets split popcorn ight and he's like i want money for food later but ight lets go check...then he sees a guy that he balls at logan with and he give us free popcorn...then we go back to our seats and the movie starts...it started out with this mother in labor and then this happened and that happened then this happened OOOOOO MY GOOD and this happened at in the end the cops come yea its THAT good watch it lol...then after we go to morgs and i just sleep with morgan on his bed =D but yea bye bye

just some thoughts

i havent blogged in a long time idk when was the last time but life itself have been good well its been ok i guessi chilled with morgan frankie and marc like the whole week kinda and i balled at logan can you believe it cuz i can't but yea morgan forced me so its w/e then i saw a person i haven't met for so long...my ading array haha it was nice seeing her again...today didn't really do much but it was ight anyways i really posted this to say some stuff

-even through all the things we went through its hard for me to forget u...u've changed my life in a way i thought would have never happened and i meant the good not the bad for some reason even through my things i still manage to always look back at us...if only you knew if only you see but i know you dnt want to...

-for some reason no matter what our past is since that grade i can't believe what has happened...what i mean to say is that i feel something...but i know you dnt feel the same...your such a great person and i know what i mean...you seem to know what you want and what you need but the thing is that your in love...and i understand y but i know theres nothing for us so i keep it on the low even though you felt something before lol...

-i hope your happy with what you did...i guess wat you like to do is ruin ppl who f'ed you over yea i know you know im talking to you...i hope your happy with what you did but i hope you know that i was the stronger one here becuz even though you ruined me i still didnt express ur private life...and the way ppl think of you is all a lie and i know who you really are...and y your BF left you...hope your happy now cuz truely ive always been happy ever since yea LOL

welp yea bye =P

just something...

ok so my day today was pretty chill hung out with my babe and also went to my aunts house cause she came back today...flight was delayed and she brought me back a nice philippines shirt =D and yea just chill played some games too...

and something thats been on my mind is that truth...i miss my friends and i wanna hit them up and say "lets go do something" but because they think i do them wrong its hard for me to ask and say lets go do something...i dnt want to get dissed or be lied to...i know it may seem that way but trust me it aint...i mean if i need to get somewhere i can find my own ways trust me i know how cause its call public transportation =D but yea...idk i feel like that whole thought messed everything up...but i guess my past ruined my future and i can't do anything about it...i guess we'll have to see what god has planned for me...

i just wanna say to "YOU" that i miss ya bud i know that what yall think is what yall assume but trust me it aint like that i mean come on now we've known each other since the 6th grade and how we always walked on bockman saying ooo thats where i live haha...ima go home now...yea that sewage is my house...i remember those times....or how you were always there for me and how i was always there for you for the BIGGEST times to the thin times you always cared to listen and i did as well...we've grown to be best buds and your mom is my mom and vice versa...you've opened up the true me and the weird me lol...and that special jar we have...i would never ever use you for any reason your my bud my best bud my para my bro...and ill never PORGET us lol

DUDE what happened foo we like hung out like the last 6 months at school lol always talking about this that and POKEMON well badminton too haha...and yea i know i stirred your love life wrong but ill make it up lol...you probablly wont let me though...but it seems after school ended we went out seperate ways and i dont like that...i miss you funny ass FOO lol we need to play badminton again too idk what happened to me i feel hella rusty lol

FOOO wen we bouts to chill again and play some UFC so i can kick your ass like usual haha =D but yea those crazy ass nights idk were just something different in life but its wat made my life...idk man your just random at moments to but its funny

in the end you never Porget your friends and never wanna see them go...but in my case somethings do happen for a reason well idk what will happen now and as much as i do want to use my phone to hit em up its difficult to feel the upset that can occur i mean if you friends think your using them how can i hit them up as they may think its still like that...idk i guess i have to find a way to chill with them to show i aint using them...idk goodnight =|

OMG i want it

ok so right now i really like really like really want a car idk my mom wont buy me a car even though my brother has one but the only thing really holding me back is INSURANCE AHHHHHHH...but i really need a car to cruise on and what not but idk...also i want a video game i think im obsessed but its all good it keeps me company but yea its either BIGS 2 or FIGHT NIGHT ROUND 4 maybe no i want BIGS more but yea i want he BIGS 2 for the xbox 360 =D


anyways my day was good woke up early but to be with my babe...later on we went to taco bell and stayed at my house at around 2 she left and i just played video games...

now im waiting for my cousins to come and so we can go out my days now over yet =D

btw..."KAGAT KA NANG KAGAT" "AYO KO" shes weird but i have her =D

ayaw ayaw

hello everyone =D...ok so i ended up coming back from camping early a day early and i was ok with that becuz as soon as i came back i was with my babe =D which i couldnt wait for...so we hookahed at camping everynight and it was koo cuz i got my OOO's down WOOOO hella juiced and we just kept doing that...umm ever since ive been back ive been with babe or family soo yea i have stayed home this summer but its good im saving money...

4th of july just went to my grandparents house and stayed there and then went to babes to watch happy peet it hella felt like her mom was kicking me out =P...

sooo today babe came over and we just chilled in my room watching alot of tv and i knocked out...then we went to quickleys and i saw joey jerry and ricky who i havent seen in a while well ricky i havent seen for a shit long time...after i talked with them for a bit...i drove home and babe drove after to her house...i miss her =P...but yea idk this is different and i love it...i dnt give what yall say its my feelings and i know what im doing soooo go away...anyways im lovin summer so far its just awsome =D BYE

ppl now a days

ok so i was looking around cause i be noisy like that but ima say right now WORDS ARE WORDS there not actions so of course they don't prove anything but other than that its funny how much ppl can change and what not and especially the close friends you have the fcuk...idk its there lives not mine and if they don't know the true from the fake then let it be...only reason y ppl change there minds is because ppl talk them into it but its always the person to choose in the end...idk i guess in the end everyone back stabs people fade no one really has your back because alot of things change the only i can trust the most like 100% is my familia till the end idk... and just like i expected YOUR STILL HELLA OPEN knew it from the start till the end...and really i need a break from girls AHHHHHHHHH...othr then that orientation for sfsu this monday...having a sleep over =D with the bruhs... and camping to with the bruhs and mi mama both different dates IM LOVEING SUMMER =D

damn just and update

ok so today is what monday the idk haha but yea today i had a badminton banquet and i cried becuz of what my coaches wrote to me but other then that i realized ive been drinking for a about 7 days since last week yea i know bad but anyways i graduated =D im hecka happy and some of you know that im currently single yea i know it was a surprise and i turned 18 =D but yea anyways i want to say that sometimes you know need to leave someone alone in order for them to see how much they really feel for you and how they can see their feelings are there but once your always around and trying to do something it doesnt work oooo and also know your limits and i mean this in drinking as you can see some can get pretty weird and f'd up thats y i know my limits and i've heard that ppl who are drunk tend to express their true feelings its bull how ppl dont know what their saying when their drunk but im sure its not like that and now its summer for me and im glad cuz i dont have to be home right now cuz im at a friends...other than thats want to let ppl know that things tend to happen fast and you should control it and in order to have a nice future you must deal with the bull shit in the present sooo be prepared and just worry about the current present

WOOO b-day =D

DAMN i havent blogged in a while but some ppl may know its my birthday soon =D im truning 18 WOOOOO but yea some have asked what i wanted soo yea...

things i wants that are expensive:
1. a car haha
2. nintendo ds.
3. a laptop
4. a new phone haha.

Not so expensive:
1.money lol
2.if i get a DS i want an M3
3.clothes(beaders, shirts, pants, jacket =D, all size medium)
4.rechargeable battery for xbox 360 (specifically black)
5.itouch 2nd gen case
6.anything pokemon
7.HOOOKAH =D
8. nice pokemon or anime wallet =D


FREE:
1.HAPPY BIRTHDAY GREETING =D

just a little something

so as ive learned from the past its that actions speak louder then words and in order to believe it you must see it and it still stands at the thing that comes to mind unlike me wen i say something i keep it down to the end i stay true to the words that i have i guess in the end you can't really believe everything and it changes alot to

last game...DON PRIDE

so today was the last badminton game for me as a team...boy have these past 3 months been a great and fun time...today was HAAL and well i was hoping to make it futher then i did last year but it turned out to be the same but its ok Amenda and i had alot of fun and i enjoyed it...the first game i played we won and it was a good win but the next two games were just close and i was upset with myself for messing up 2 much but its ok...but the farthest person to go was Phat the freshman i was hella proud of that guy and there were some pretty good matches...at the end no one went to NCS from our school and it was a tough day...on the bus ride home i realized that it was my last bus ride as a team and the last time with the team on the bus and as we got off the bus our coach dean made us line up i decided to go to the end and as he came up to me last telling me how good of a captain i was i started to tear and realize what i was going to lost and miss next year then i heard that i made coach starting to tear to it was a very sad to hear what all other people were telling me....im going to miss badminton and I LOVE MY ARROYO DONS BADMINTON TEAM...my 2nd family <3

today....

today started out just all bad idk today just wasnt my day it all started with diamond making me feel bad becuz i had to cancel plans with them srry diamond i owe yall one and then another thing was that i was cutting my hair today and that wasn't such a good job as i accidently cut my hair with no clippers -_- and then we went to jerry's house and that foo took hella long in the shower lol but yea then it was time to go to school for our game but we were late becuz we went to get wendy's then mike and tony weren't there yet then we lose our game to tennyson which places us 4th and our whole line was just f'd but idk and then it all ends with drama and like me having crazy thoughts and all i have to say is that if i can handle the pain inside and its your lost not mine IF anything happens but im just saying but yea i dont like today that much later

just a little something

ok sooo like recently ive been hearing alot of trouble and pain by my friends from diamond and truthfully it hurts to her the pain that they deal with and how things came to be but i must say that its the things you deal with in life and the lessons you learn to become stronger as a person and as a whole...i know that it takes a while to let go of somebody that you fell for and once you fall deep for them its just hard to move on but truthfully youll be able to it just takes time you must handle things one at a time in life and from day to day that you deal with the things you do you learn from it... but lemme ask you wen summer comes around you think youll still have those feelings or wat about wen you dont see them anymore hmm its just something to think about becuz things do take time and patience is a virtue in life. just be patient ladies and learn from this hurt and pain you have delt with and use it to become the stronger you inside...your growing up the person will come in time and you just need to not look and have fun let it just happen naturally...

anyways sooo like from diamond i was told that i would be greatly missed by them and how they were hhaha yea idk dont want to say but yea i was also asked what i wanted as a gift but truthfully i have everything i want i have the things i need which is a lovely family great people and teamates and even a great girlfriend i can't ask for anything more im happy with what i got.

n the funniest thing that happened to me happened yesterday when i was in the shower and i just got out and i heard the doorbell so i went to get it and it was a realtor coming to look at my house so i said hi i just got out the shower and she was like ooo im srry and i was like ooo its ok just come in and the whole time she was staring at my body becuz i only had pants on i was just laughing wnen i went back to my room lol but yea that was funny

and my birthday is comeing up in a month =D proms coming up =D and im getting addicted to pokemon and i still want that yonex armortec 600 racket =\ but it might take a while =P but yea thats it

ooo and i can't blog everyday becuz i hate typing id rather talk but yea

sowie

ok so today was hella hot O.o like you dont already know that but anyways i havent bloged in a while becuz im so lazy to blog lol but yea...so lately im been getting into pokemon cards like crazy i mean crazy lol well not ceazy over the top but yea i've been playing it alot anyways tomorrow my team and i have a game tomorrow against Mt.eden but i can care a less but yea its going to be fun to me lol but yea practice was freakin scorching hot like no lie...umm school ends in 37 days and im hella juiced and i have a bbq tomorrow =D also cherish everything you have at the current moment becuz once its gone you dont know how to get it back

but yea after practice joey jerry mike and i went to tapex and i was wearing a white beader and my red shorts and so we walk in and just see like a bunch of girls...but i do my own thang ordering my stuff and eating and dranking and talking with them and then we're about to leave so i turn around and see this young girl staring at me then i hold the trash can for jerry and joey and as im holding it looking for my friend ben i catch a girl whose like my age hella dead ass staring at me im like haha caught you and i just kept laughing then i turn again and caught her again but seriously idk why she was looking i think she thought i was ugly becuz i dont think im cute but yea i haven't blogged in a while ill try to blog more often but yea PEACE

such a great day

ok so today i was very excited since i had a game today and the whole day i was just so excited since my arm got better much much better from friday but yea

sooo first block was ok kinda sleepy other then that it was koo... 2nd block was same as usual but it was boring for once in a while but yea nicole and i just talked so yea lunch ehh it wasn't special just paid my physics day fee and talked to my ading about her current situation 3rd block was actually the highlight class as i had hella fun there spanish is fun and mrs llana makes it interesting but yea after that it was 4th block one closer block to play my game and i was soooooooo excited i was dressed in my uniform and ready to play i was sooooo juiced and ready to go sooo yea at 2:30 we were released and getting ready but moreau was late like really late idk but yea they still showed..

today was my first day of playing with my new partner and my good friend JERRRYYYYY TAIIIINNNG haha...anyways while we we were announcing names and rules SYLVIA was messing up the names like a DOUCHE lol jk jk but yea and sooo while iwas waiting for my game i saw my baby =D at the door with a black bag she gave it to me and it was a little blue thing thats hecka cute and some sean john cologne i love her for that but yea while i was waiting for my game i was just with her the whole time cuz i missed her sooooo much but yea the team won 10-5 and jerry and i won also with my friends and baby watching soooo much support =D but yea it felt hella good later i played with mike and we were freaking raw its koo to play with that foo at the end nicole wanted to take a DIAMOND picture but i was all sweaty and i was like nah but yea then later jerry joey kitty and i went to quickleys and just chilled there for then i got home and found out i got my 4.0 BABY WOOOOO lets gooooo first won =D but yea thats my day which was an awesome day

another day

SO today started kinda ehhh cuz idk i was just sooo tired and i felt lazy so what i did was i didn't feel like dressing up but i was glad that school was short today so that was a good thing but in econ we basically walked around campus reviewing some stuff that helped then yearbook was koo i am stressing a bit becuz we're missing a bit of stuff in some files and i dont feel like calling the people cuz i hate dealing with that kinda shit lol but yea anyways this week in yearbook was kinda crazy becuz its getting serious and no more fukcing around but yea sooo in third block and we didnt do shit but the girl who say next to me was hella like touchy touchy on me and i was like stop becuz im with viv but yea other then that it went pretty good lunch was nothing big P.E. same as always and just working on my abs =D but yea...after school we had practice and that shiet was crazy becuz we did hella shit in practice and i could barely lift my arm =P but i was glad that i have weight training so i was good and then i heard rumors played a couple games ooo and sylvia STUPID SYLVIA hit me so i hit her back on the calf and i left a mark =D hahaha and then she tried to hit me in the ass lol with her foot but mines was better cuz i got her twice =D sooo yea but after practice i went to ohana with joey and kitty and jerry and we were hella chin checking kitty cuz she kept getting me but yea haha now im with my family and they have drinks lol =D i might idk cuz i have school tomorrow other than that yea PEACE OOOO and i can't wait for Fast and the Furious WOOOOOOO LEGO BABy

(=) Smiles both ways

soooo today was finals, i believe i did well on my final and hopefully got my 4.0 this semester but anyways my government class i have and A in =D and well yearbook didnt have a final but those freaking computers freaked me the F out i swear but anyways sp we had a game against Tennyson and we WON!!!!! and i won with my new partner that was a very intense game score was 7-7 and still had one game left and it was all up to richard and anthony but they pulled through on the 3rd set and forreals though no joke but they cheat and i caught it becuz they probablly would of pulled something off but that game was SOOOOOO intense no lie but we ended up with the win 8-7 =D and my partner and i pulled 2 sets 21-4 21-8 sooo that was good and idk i still have finals tomorrow and i have a date with my babe this saturday which i can't wait for but yea BYE =D

weak day

Mood:Suspicious

ok so idk i just had alot on my mind out of nowhere and like idk my mind feels suspicious but what i do want to get off my mind is how ppl are how do you say this ooo i know how their greedy and seem to always want more then what they have at that moment and this affects everyone i agree none of us are perfect but seriouslly dont you know when to draw the line i mean come on you fight for what you want and once you get it you want more? that's just weird now lets say this is a relationship and you fight for someone you want really bad by doing alot and when you receive what do you do you want something else right hmmm weird seriously i think you should make up your mind and decide like seriously what you want because in the end youll see the true outcome and forreals it ain't pretty now another thing that bothers me is words how ppl can say alot and you just believe it man i went down that road some many times but it seems like none of us can keep it ok well me im working on it and yes i have gotten better to my words but i guess with these words that come out just messed me up and doesn't seem so good as it has scarred me i've had ppl who said they wouldn't despise me and they did i've had ppl who said they would have my back and they just backstab me and i've had a girl who said she'll be true and won't leave me and yet THEY have also it just seems like my past has messed me up and i can't let it go now my mind is stronger then my mind and i know this is true but it seems my heart always wins i guess at this point im just scared and also doesn't appreciate these ppl who think they can get everything ooo yea and if you think that you can sneak things by me try again because i am more wise and been through alot no try not to hide anything just be honest and true that's all i ask instead of me finding out the truth but yea my day was weak bouts to do hw PEACE

Words and thoughts of mine and one more thing once a flirt always a flirt this is to everyone be wise and be careful because it has been proven and seen with my eyes

First game

So today started off with me being hella juiced for my game against Moreau but i still had to go through the school day. So i turned in my community service and i hella thanked the cancer society who helped me in hella ways. But today in my gov class me and 3 of my classmates had a skit to do and we hella made our skit last minute and ended up having the best score 29/30 i was hella juiced. The rest of the blocks i just couldn't wait to get over with. So 4th block comes and i was sooo excited to go and play and have some fun. We get to moreau and wait for about an hr before we get in which was ok i guess. The varsity ppl start to change and get warmed up on the court then coach tells me to bring it in. i give a little speech and do our chant GAME TIME. i find out that im the ones to play early and was kinda nervous but as the game started i was confident and knew i would be able to do well so mable , my partner, and i have a great start and ended up winning 21-11 21-10 2 sets i kinda felt that there was something fishy. We lose as a team 8-7 such a close game and i took it hard but i had to let it go...

Monday and Tuesday

Ok so yesterday was a god day for me and the reason was becuz in first block i recieved a B on my government test and i had thought i recieved a C becuz i was kinda lost and guessed alot but that made my day then i go to second and we finished the senior files all we have to do now is type which i dont want to during lunch Jerry comes to school and tells me he got my RACKET i was hella excited to see it i was sooo juiced 3rd was like any other day and during 4th on our run i found a dollar i was like "OOO a dollar" haha and then in weight training i benched pressed my own weight and i weigh 135lbs i know im pretty skinny but still MY OWN WEIGHT and the only thing i do is badminton but yea oooo so at badminton i used the dollar i found at P.E. to buy a grip for my new racket =D and i was also named captain of the team to =D but before i was named captain my hun surprised me at practice and she came by that hella made my day i was like =OOOOOO =D but yea shes so unexpected but i love it

but that was yesterday but today was a pretty nice easy chill day nothing much really happened but during P.E. i did 30 DIPS 30 i was hella impressed and i havent done any in a while i was like WOOOOOO but yea =D... i did beat the J.V. Coach hehe =D and i also went to go spectate our competition with joey and jerry.

i Can't wait for our first game this Thursday against moreau and we also get our shirts tomorrow =D im hella juiced and our shorts WOOOOO omg you dont even know and also we get out early OMG this is awesome but yea...i can't wait im too excited but yea

my family hella realtes to each other

ok so today was a weird day lol right now im listening to my cousins in the back talking but yea....so today in the morning i got up and got ready for school went to gov it was ok went to yearbook and didnt do anything just talk to nicole and my hun and spanish was ok lunch was koo and 4th was koo...so jerry and i leave practice to get some community service but apparently there was no more openings so we went back to practice...my partner and i played the team that was even with us and we lost out of 3 sets i think we did good but we need to improve...our first game is next thursday on the 12th against moreau and im hella juiced...i got home and see my cousins skating at the back so i join and tag with them...we later go out to eat and drink at tap hella good...

mondays

grr today was an ok day today my phone was dying so i wasn't able to text other ppl =(...gov was ok yearbook was ok my spanish class was ok and i had a quiz today but i dnt really know about it and P.E. we chose different classes but yea...practice was ok i couldnt hit becuz we lifted weights and went to jack in the box and filled myself up but yea


AND MY MOM MAKES IT A GREAT MONDAY BY BUYING ME A IPOD TOUCH WOOOOO I LOVE HER