he wakes up from a short sleep feeling tired and restless but is excited for the day ahead is something he awaited. He hops in the shower and gets ready in a rush as he is somewhat late. as he walks out the house all he could think about was to arrive at that place even though it was a short distance. He arrives a couple of minutes late to see many souls around but just blends in the crowd. after the event was done he spent time with his friends that were there as well. walked nothing more than a mile and satisfied his tummy. The day was far from over as they arrived back at their destination. from his somewhat long walk he decided he needed a rest and sat with a very good friend at a table. He sets his furry friend on the table. they talked for a while but one thing he was surprised of was the fact of how his heart was rushing. before he knew what was going on a sticker was set on his furry friend.

Today was the first day of a journey that was going to end in june. things raced through his mind as he had something planned. the first day seemed somewhat slow and he was nervous as what he had in his backpack was just a little thing but can be gentle. the bell had rang and it was time for his approach. he knew the numbers that would unlock and left the small thing inside with a smaller thing with writing. he felt so nervous that he didnt know what to do. as he walked out he overheard that his plan was going to get ruined so he desperately did the unthinkable and thought of lie to get his plan back on track but seemed to obvious. he walks to a bench and sits patiently waiting for his plan to occur. feeling like a nervous wreck all he could do was wait. lights start to flash and no friends were in spitting range as the two were side by side. he receives an answer, receives a hug.

he approaches his friends stating he wasn’t single anymore they congratulate him but to his amazement one of his friends felt the same way. the only thing he can think of was the fact that his friend never jumped on the chance. his friend states it’s fine but deep down inside he’s shocked.

9-9-09

yea look at the title hahahaha

anyways soo my day wasnt so great in the beginning to start off with the shower and how i didnt have any shampoo soo i was like ehh w/e and just continued my shower then i couldnt find my phone case because my momma threw it away so i had to go find that then the civic was all foggy and icy so i couldnt really see so i rolled down the windows and to my surprising discovery my windows wouldnt roll up all the way so i had to call my mom to get the car in the morning and had to wait which made me late for the BART and school then my bus came but i couldnt get on cuz it was full so i had to wait but when i got to school there was a seat for me in calc cuz theres usually no seats soo i was glad lol...at school it was a good day seemed my day became better there =) classes were smooth and a cute girl kept looking at me but me no interested haha but yea...then wen i get back from classes my momma picked me up and went to my grandparents house to see that he was fixing the window and it worked and everything just went smooth from there...i do have this little thing i want to put about love but yea not now its expanding from relationship love..well kinda

"Service to many leads to greatness"

FORREALS....

I fcuking hate it when ppl ask me to take them places just so they can do or get something and doesnt have anything to involve me in it like seriously im not a FCUKING TAXI CAB or a CHAUFFEUR you have your own parents n if you dnt have parentals to take you then get your fucking ass up and take a bus BART the same thing i did when i didnt have a fcukin car like really...i mean its fun to have my l's i can go where i want and i can do my own thing and leave when i want to but when you fcuking ask me to take you places and when we're chilling you fcuking make fun of me like seriously the fuck is that and also i haven't seen yall to benefit or help me in any way. just because i have my l's doesnt mean you should always ask me to take you places. if i offer then thats a different story im offering you and i wouldnt mind but seriously the dnt where a fucking cap or have a meter SO GET OFF MY FCUKING BALLS AND GET YOUR FCUKING LAZY ASS UP N GET IT YOURSELF SHIT

anyways i dnt think i've been that heated in a while but anyways today was a koo day went to go get francis and we went to michaels and went to starbucks to do some homework and then eat at in-n-out...i swear i loving chilling with francis and being with that foo he's hella fun and funny 2 and chilling with him as friends only but yea

my love status is just eazed and chill i mean i do want to have that person but i dnt want to force it i am who i am and im not going to change that i might adjust but thats it love is something you can't force to happen and by it comes to you with ease and the best type of love is the love that u dont see and just hits you out of nowhere many of us strive for love many of us ask for love but the truth is it takes time to develop...so what i mean to say is that my status is still single, still like that same person that i have been from my other blogs but patiently waiting...

"you never know what you had until its gone, then it shows how much it means to you"

just to clarify...

my last blog wasnt about a girl also well the dream part was but yea anyways

i just wanted to let you know that you were a great girl and that i was looking foward to a future with us but i know everyone that has been reading my blogs know what i mean but i do want to say that u were that type i was looking forward too but u were just confusing to me that made everything blah and hard but i mean i guess we shall just go seperate ways and be us...such a shame cuz it looked very bright

its all good...

so today i tried downloading games for my mac lol like getting a ps2 on here lol but ehh cooperate with me then i tried to get a game thats not really working well 2 lol so now im just sitting here watching CSI:Miami. i like this CSI better then any other one becuz idk i think its the way of the graphics catches my attention and that blonde girl is hecka pretty lol even though shes old. later im going to try to see if i can get that download to work. n probably chill with some peeps not sure yet.

so last night i had a weird dream and the night before 2...it involved me turning down 2 ppl one from a kiss and the other yea lol but ANYWAYS ooo but the girls are ppl that i know and yea

so like i really like how ppl are now a days so truthful n loving SIKE the hell. the thing i dnt like is how ppl can think that i can just be soft n nice but i mean i can but not like just for any occasion reason especially to benefit your needs, all you wanted for me is to just join you so your not the only freshman and after go your own ways when i asked for the same favor but you didnt want to come as well soo i mean really all your doing is hiding the truth

and i can't believe you as well i helped you with your problems i helped you through your pain n i helped you get through ur heartache from a person you dearly loved i opened up to you and u did as well, the only difference between u n me is that i can keep my mouth shut, forreals you have no right to be giving info about my life and telling ppl how i am if you are just a lie and complete lie.

w/e i can get through this like i always have...

"girl tell me the truth not a lie, cuz your love is something i can't deny"

haha thats funny...

cuz my previous blog wasn't about a girl, lady, woman, w.e

but i have learned that even though it can get lonely and do want that someone to lean on have fun with and treat her special sometimes its not always like that, and yes i will say lesson learned and i will wait for that one to come n ill keep on waiting till she does cuz patience is a virtue and sometimes waiting for something to come to you is better then making it happen

so today i saw this couple that i know and before they were not in the best relationship and didnt show much love they argued fought and just didn't look like love to me more of a business to me. they almost reached the point of leaving and turning around but with the help of close loved ones they fought n stayed strong n now they're stronger then ever and look like a couple again and to my eyes looked a lot like true love because in the end through everything they came across they ended up working it out and continued there love...

well today i went to antioch for a baby cousins birthday party, it was fun, ate alot, saw some ppl that haven't seen in a while and got that special relationship back...

"a first true love is like a sickness at first it goes away but then comes back again"

too much for my mind...

its annoying how you only want to benefit yourself, how you demand me to do something that satisfies your needs but when it comes to mine you make no effort no passion, all the things that have came out of your mouth are just things to cover up the truth, the things you say that seem to be fake are true, how i've always been making an effort, its just annoying overall to what you have fed in my mind these thoughts are just too much and you are as well, i make my effort which doesnt seem so good, you're just so selfish, and how you think that making fun behind my back wont catch up but it has, i hope your happy with what you have done and i guess you can say mission accomplished cause you got my fooled,but ill say that when you need help think twice before coming to me

5 day weekend for me hella excited, get to relax forget the stress and just chill

copying francis hehe...

so francis did his little what he wanted in a girl if he was straight well im do the same thing but i am straight so ima still do straight lol but yea what i want a girl...

someone who tries before she gives up before she makes any assumptions as assumptions are just things that you consider, a girl whose smart not someone who is hella smart but works for her grades and is able to take care of herself, a girl thats responsible and not lazy as laziness is a turn off, a girl who can dress nice on some day but dress like simple and still look beautiful, a girl who is adorable and can make me smile and say yup thats my little girl LITERALLY but from far away lol, a girl that isnt afraid to be her self around me and is comfortable with me knowing i wont judge her the wrong way, who is able to enjoy time with me even though all we did was watch tv, where even though its a party and hella ppl are around she'll come up to me look me in the eyes and say i love you with a nice peck on the lips, who gives effort into things even though she knows shes not all that great at it, who doesnt ACT like shes everything and kinda acts like a lady but has he child side, where if i stare at her she says what? WHAT?!? and then smiles and turns away, where i can feed her and shell feed me =], whose loving towards her family and never deny that fact that she loves them, who can get along with my friends and i can get along with hers, who doesnt lie to the full extent if its about a surprise im ok with it but i want her to be honest, to know that im not the only person in her life and is able to have her fun just like me, where we can have fun like a little play around wrestle lol and have a nice kiss in the end, who isnt afraid to open up to me as im always there to listen and take in her advice, where we can write letters to each other, how we can have our accessories that signifies we're together, someone who will hold hands with me but hold pinkeys were there sweaty and hug then say bye but isnt able to let go, how she can put as much effort in the relationship just like i do, my list can go on but its alot...


besides that today i went to class at 8 and wen i went to go pick up sylvia at 6AM he told me there was a shooting and i thought it was fireworks go figure lol...so we got to BART got to SFSU and then went to my classes my engineering teacher said we can leave after like 30 mins of instructions koo right so i hope on BART sleep at like glen park and wake up around san leandro =] but yea then i went home. chilled for a bit then went to arroyo chilled with some ppl and drop them off, went to morgans to chill then drove home saw yvonne gave her a lift got home went with my mom to my grandparents and now im home but yea srry i know its short and sweet but yea BYE =]